Americans work hard

I've realized how hard i used to work thru all this. I've missed so much work lately, i pretty much feel like i'm here more than there, and it's really really hard. I never knew how much pride is associated with doing your job well, feeling like you're an important part of the team.

Lately, i've felt like a burden if anything... hardly ever there, not really a part of any of the big projects, just not present. It's been a hard thing to accept, pridewise, but I've learned to respect my body and listen to what it has to say. If it says stay home, I do, even if I feel totally guilty about it. Only one more treatment after this, then I can't wait to get my work back on, and to feel good about myself, workwise, all over again.

Funny, but I'm really looking foward to getting back to work, life, regularity.