YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-HAAAAAAWWWWWW!!!

THE BEST NEWS I'VE HAD SINCE THIS ALL BEGAN: my PET scan came back "normal". YES, YES, YES, YES, YES, YES!!!! I'd be lying if I didn't just up front admit I've been so scared the last few days. Really scared. Just wondering: " what if there's more microscopic cancer cells that the CT scan didn't pick up?". I've been practicing my visualization of healthy cells, staying positive, trying to KNOW i'm all good in there...but, man, that fear and doubt just creep in. There's no way to keep it out all together, it's just a part of being a human. So, that being said, I've been laying in bed the last few nights thinking so much about how I'd handle this moment....just in case it was bad news. Lord knows I've gotten good at handling bad news, but this one was BIG. I just wasn't sure I could take this all over again...realizing I STILL have this dreaded cancer inside me after a HUGE surgery to get it out. Well, I don't have to deal, b/c TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!! God, i just want to click my heels together down my whole block. Just giddy; so relieved. Finally, finally, finally some good news. I haven't felt this good and hopeful in a while. It's like I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders the last few days, and it's been lifted! I'm just so happy right now I can't contain myself.

I meet with my oncologist next week, get the infusaport put in, and start the chemo the week after. The schedule should allow for me to be home for Xmas, and lets me do some "banking" next week.