Here we go.

Well, it's Monday night and normally I'm mostly fired up about MNF. Hell, the Rockies are playing a playoff game to get into post season... but I'm really just focusing in on this surgery tomorrow. I can't actually think too much about it or i freak out inside. So, instead i'm focusing in on all the things I've learned from all this:

I've learned it's all about the people in your life. F the things, they're just things.
I learned that you can really push the levels of your comfort. 2 weeks ago i was scared to have blood drawn..now it's nothing to me. When push comes to shove, humans can be super amazing and can adapt to almost anything.
I learned that maybe my purpose in life is to be the youngest guy anyone knows who has had cancer and beat it. That way everyone knows it can be done and also that life is fragile. One day you're one of the healthiest people you know, the next the sickest. It kinda feels good to think I have a real purpose.
I've learned that if i just talk about stuff, i feel better, and so does my wife.
I've learned that crying is OK.
I've learned that not eating solid food for long times makes you move up a notch on your belt, and now i understand what super models go thru.
I've learned to not be afraid to take risks in life. Not the "watch me jump from this building to the next"-type risks, but just going for it. You really have nothing to lose and never know how many more chances you 'll get at those risks.
And most importantly, i've learned i'm gonna be ok. no matter what happens to me, i'm gonna be alright, and i'm gonna come out of this thing a more learned man who really appreciates every moment i get to spend with all of you.