Refreshing to know I still believe

Now, don't get me wrong. This isn't your typical something-bad-happens-and-now-i've-found-god story here. Mere and I spent lots of time in church with our families growing up, and Andrew Miller and I were still even going very regularly thru early college. But, along the way something happened and I/we realized organized religion just didn't appeal to me. Or at least no one religion I've learned about (most all of them) had all the ideals I supported. I like some from one, some from others. I've always felt 'to each their own', tho, and if you were into it, great, and if I wasn't, great (no condemning here). As long as you don't force yours on me (no one likes to be told what to do, right?), it's all about one's personal choice, but it was just that- my choice. no one else's. Now, as this view became more and more a stern front to which I crouched behind, I almost found myself having no relationship with sprituality besides telling myself I still believed in something greater and larger than any one of us, and appreciating the wonder and spectacle of this thing we call life, and knowing there just HAD to be something bigger and greater up there to create so much beauty and amazement that life has. Just look at those mountains out your window (if you live in CO).
Well, I have to say, I still feel the same way about organized religion (sorry, mom) at this point, but this whole event has really just reaffirmed to me my belief in something bigger and better and gone miles and miles to establish my faith and relationship with what it is we all call 'god'. Now, i've mentioned I'm not into the preachy thing, so i'll refrain from going there, but I must say it's so very refreshing to just KNOW where I stand again. And for all of you who offer prayers for me, thank you, because I very much appreciate them, and KNOW it's helping. To WHOEVER you pray to and HOWEVER you do it..thank you. To me, those deatils don't matter, b/c it's more about just having that faith. I know someone is listening and going to keep me healthy and alive for many more years to come. And that sort of thing sure makes me feel that much more confident I will lick this thing good.
ps- sorry if this offends or upsets anyone's views. i know talk on religion and god is very sensitive, but just find this blog as a place for me to air my thoughts, good or bad.